Growing up I always had this fear that my Grandmother would die in her sleep.  I loved my Grandmother very much.  I don't know where I got the idea, but somewhere in my life I heard that older people sometimes die in their sleep.  I guess anyone can die in their sleep, but I worried that my Grandmother would.  So every night, before I would go to bed, I would check up on my Grandmother.  I would go to her room, silently walk up to her bed, and check to see if she was breathing.  Once I would see that she was, I felt better, and I would head to bed.  Sometimes her breathing was shallow, or there wasn't enough light in the room, that I didn't just look and go.  I would sometimes stay for a while, by her bedside, waiting to see her move.  When she would, I would feel much better.

There were times when she would turn over, and would nearly catch me watching over her.  She only woke up to me checking up on her a few times throughout the years.  Most of the times she would catch me it was because she was still awake.  She would see me in the darkness and say, "Hi!"  I would say hi back, and talk to her for a little while.  Just to tell her that I was checking up on her.  She would tell me why she was still up, and I would go to bed.

Isn't it strange that many straight people have this fear that they will be "turned" gay?  If someone is straight, really straight, no amount of pressure, turning, coaxing, could turn them gay.  Right?

Think of it logically.  You're a straight man, a gay man comes on to you, do you:

• A) Respond to his proposition with a punch to his mouth?
• B) Accept and start making out with the guy.
• C) Kindly inform the admirer that you're not gay?

Having dealt with this situation myself I would think that any logical, and truly straight, person would choose option C.  However, there are many men who would choose option A for their response, which seems totally illogical to me.  If you are straight you're not going to suddenly "turn" gay if a gay person finds you attractive.

I think that people who are afraid of a gay person coming on to them must have some secret gay desires running through their minds.  Desires that they wish to suppress for whatever reason.  Otherwise they wouldn't be so half-cocked when it comes to homosexuals.  There is this thing about not wanting to be around alcohol if you're an alcoholic, because the temptation is just too much.  Perhaps it's the same way with homophobic people.  The temptation is so great that if someone even mentions the word gay they'll want to have gay sex.

Many of my gay friends have said that they find it difficult to deal with people who hate them just because of their sexual preference.  One even said to me, "Don't you think I would choose to be straight if I could?"  If you are one of those people who think being gay is a "choice" then look at what you're saying.  Logically would anyone choose to be shunned by society?  Would anyone choose to be disowned by their family?  Would anyone choose to be hated, ridiculed, or threatened with bodily harm, or even death?  Makes no sense right?  Then why would you think someone would choose to be gay?