Mon July 1, My aunt had a bad night last night, what with feeling sick. When I saw her this morning I was worried. She had been to the bathroom many times during the night. She had vomited and looked really worn out this morning. I took her to urgent care. They were not super fast, but I have to say that it wasn't such a terrible wait. It felt like a longer wait for her meds. The diagnosed her with the stomach flu. They checked her vitals and gave her IV. She was already feeling better by the time we came back home. Still weak, but better. I picked up some food, soup and rice for her, and a wrap for me. She finished up her soup and went to sleep. As I write this she's resting in her room. She might have gotten better by herself, but I worry about her and I know that she's not going to take care of herself.

I was thinking about this dilemma the other day when I was planning my trip to San Francisco. I'll be gone for nearly a week, and in the past I've worried about her, but the worry is now more. I need to find a way of having her taken care of when I'm out of town. I don't know how to do that, but I'll have to figure something out.

In other news, it would appear that these dopes FINALLY got my lunch period correct. But the funny thing is that instead of being on the desk in the morning, they have me answering phones for the first three hours of my shift. Oh, that's not going to suck at all. At least they got my lunch right. This time.

"Shawnie's World" is my take to one of my favorite paintings "Christina's World" by Andrew Wyeth. My coworker wanted to go up to the poppy fields and take some pictures. Which was great. There was a point where she was in the poppies and it reminded me of that painting. I told her about the painting and showed it to her. She agreed to be "Christina" in my photograph.

"Sunset Kiss" was taken for my friend's engagement. He's getting married later this week, but way back in September he wanted me to take pictures of his lady and him. The sunset was near perfect.

"The Way She Was" was taken many years ago. The woman in the picture was named Gina (her Americanized name). She was a regular at the library and I found her attractive. In hanging out with her from time to time she would allow me to take pictures of her. This time we were in an alley close to the library. She looked good, and the brick wall behind her made for an interesting backdrop. Today I'm not even sure she's alive. A couple of years after this photo she looked completely different, because of her use of meth. She was a mess. I choose to remember her this way.

Tue July 2, I'm happy to report that my aunt is nearly 100% now. She woke up SUPER early, like around 5am, since she slept most of yesterday. When I saw her this morning she looked like her old self again. It's good to see her back to normal.

Once again SirLuna was late. Not just a little late, but nearly two hours late. He didn't arrive at work until nearly 10am. I later told Kvon this fact, because he asked to talk to me about him. I mean come on, he's been on the job for six weeks and he hasn't done the route correct once. I talked to someone about this stuff and their advice was to chronicle all this stuff. SirLuna being late, the complaints labeled against him, and the times I told my supervisor about anything. Good advice.

I asked Vagabundo for some ways of saying that SirLuna isn't doing his job. He suggested saying something like: ignores training and instructions, along with leaving basic tasks incomplete or undone.

One of the consequences of SirLuna not doing his job is that things get delayed. I picked up some fliers for the monthly events on Thursday. I took them upstairs for the "marketing" group to distribute them. They told me they had the fliers in the upstairs mail room on MONDAY. But did this dope go upstairs and get them, like he's supposed to do? No. That's why the fliers didn't go out until today. As Flavia, from the marketing team said, "They were already late and he just made them be more late." Ah huh. All because dummy didn't go upstairs to get them. I fucking told him he needs to go up to administration every morning with a book truck in tow JUST in case they give him a bunch of boxes to take. I see him while I'm on the desk. When he walks up to administration he only caries a while mail bin with him, not a truck like I told him. Again, this is not OK. I TOLD him and have a online collaborative document on the cloud that spells all this out.

These idiots have a new "campaign" going on called tell us your story. Yeah, here's a story... you all can suck my dick. The best part of that is that my story has a happy ending. These new, "Tell us your story" comment cards are just stupid. I love how every one of their initiatives is nothing but a shit show. This is just the latest one.

Wed, July 3, Nothing counts on Wednesdays except dinner with TheGirl. We went to the Italian place that I haven't had a good meal in a while. Tonight I had a good meal. Probably because of the wine flowing and the lasagna is the best dish I've had there, and that's what I ordered tonight.

TheGirl was talking about how her son and daughter in law want to go out of town before she has her baby. TheGirl suggests going to Carmel. She mentioned that she would really love to go up to Carmel again, but that poor Cheyenne can't handle such a long car trip any more. TheGirl is going up to San Francisco in late August and is leaving Cheyenne here. Poor thing. She's right though, because Cheyenne gets super tired on those car trips.

Still, I would love to go up to Carmel again. I almost thought to cancel my trip to SF and go to Carmel during Thanksgiving. But I do need a chance.

Thu July 4, Around 10:33am I was sitting at my desk playing on my computer when I felt like the chair I was sitting in was moving strange. I got up and I felt dizzy. I felt like something was wrong. I looked down the hall and saw my aunt washing her hair in the washroom sink. She was looking at me saying something. When I went to walk towards her I noticed the lights were moving in the living room. I could tell the earthquake was strong but far. I fucking hate earthquakes. They frighten me. Because of that I try to educate myself. I have an emergency kit and a bunch of water... just in case. I could go the rest of my life never experiencing that again.

Fri July 5, Today was the first day of a modified route. I'm testing some things today to confirm whether I should visit certain branches on Fridays. The one branch I really think doesn't need a Friday delivery any more is Adams. I'm considering going to Chevy on Thursdays instead of Fridays, making my Friday load that much less. But I can't shoot myself in the foot and cut off all the stops. For now I think that next week I'll skip going to Adams.

Emma invited me to Disneyland today. Of course I'm working, so I couldn't go. If Emma doesn't want something with me she sure is pushing to hang out with me. I hope that this translate to her wanting to sleep with me. Ha!

After work I jetted over to the church where my buddy is getting married tomorrow. It went pretty fast. My buddy said there was a dinner after the rehearsal. I didn't stick around for that. I went home instead. I don't want to do those sort of things.

This year is truly one of differences and changes. The earthquake yesterday was strong. Tonight we had a stronger quake. In the past a big shock would happen and that was it. This time it was just a foreshock to tonight's bigger event. I feel completely nauseous.

Sat July 6, Today was the big day for my buddy Jon to get married. There's not much to report. At the end of the night Jon had a HUGE surprise for his new bride and all of us.

He bought her a house. Well, put the downpayment on it, I'm sure.

Tue July 9, There was almost no traffic today, which is why I arrived at work early. SirLuna should have already been in the building, and loading up the van. Was he? No. He wasn't. I sat down and waited for my shift to start. Every minute that passed was another minute this bastard was late. I fucking hate that Kvon supposedly talked to him last week, and he still has the gall to show up late. Fucking tool.

For some reason SirLuna left three boxes behind. Later one of my coworkers said that SirLuna said there were too many boxes, and that if he took them all he would, "Have to make two trips," to the mail room. Ah, yeah. That's what the job is all about. Fucking moving things. Two trips, five trips, just fucking do what's necessary to get the job done. Really, I'm not surprised that he left those items. He's a tool.

The library bought more backdrops, two for outside and two for inside. Ah, why? Because the fucking sorting machine is a failure. It doesn't work. These bookdrops are direct evidence of the failure. But I'm not surprised at the failure. They're "winning" streak of failures are long.

And guess who finally showed up at 8:38am, thirty-eight minutes after he was supposed to show up. Of course he gets away with it, because Kvon didn't make it crystal clear that if he was one minute late he would be shown the door. This is because no one cares.

Emma sent me a text with a photo of the van side door left open while SirLuna was using the bathroom. Good job, dope. I mean, it's not like there's a lot of stuff that can be stolen that's not replaceable, but still. It goes to his carelessness. He's a fucking tool.

Wed July 10, Today is TheLamp's second to last day at the library. She's not here though. Today she's up in Portland at an interview for her new job. Tomorrow is obviously her last day. The folks here are throwing her a last minute party in her honor. I was there last week when the boss was asked if TheLamp would get a party. The boss says, "Oh yeah, we should do that for her." She hadn't actually thought about it until that moment last week. I guess she was just going to let TheLamp go without so much as a thought. Damn.

I'm still not sure how I feel about TheLamp leaving. I guess I'm sad. But if I'm saying that I "guess" that must mean I'm not all that sad. Hmm. In short I guess I'm just numb about it. I think I will miss her, because she was great at the job. It was nice to look at her as well. Alas, that's all over now.

Wednesday means having dinner with TheGirl. We went to get a burger and had some yummy wine. She was saying how TheHusband wants to go on a trip with her, but that she can't leave Cheyenne at home, nor can she take her alone with them. TheGirl would LOVE to go back up to Carmel, but the same thing applies. She feels that Cheyenne doesn't handle the drive up there well. She seems to be right, since the last time we went Cheyenne was pretty beat. Then again, so was I.

Thu July 11, There was an email from AD today that shows the depths these idiots will go to move someone into a job they are NOT qualified to do. Daveed has his masters degree, but he doesn't have the practical experience working as a librarian. They are clearly trying to get him to move up to administration at some point, however. This move, to make him the interim manager of a branch when he's had no experience in such things shows their hand. They're grooming him for this administration job. Many of us know that if these dopes want something to happen they'll make it happen.

On my last stop at Adams I received a balloon animal from TheNewCute. She always has some sort of flirty face when I talk to her. I'm sure it's all in my mind, and just wishful thinking that she's flirting with me.

Today was TheLamp's lsat day at San Marino. It's pretty crazy how in just over two weeks there was no inclination that she would be leaving. They threw a party for her today, but there was no way I could attend.

Fri July 12, When I arrived at work today one of my coworkers had his camera in tow. He took a portrait of me. I joked that I could use it for my book jacket.

TheLooker, as I'll call her from on (pictured above), and I have been "flirting" for some time now. She invited me to "drinks" and karaoke, but we never set a time or date. Today TheLooker saw that I was finishing up the route and said, "If you're almost done you should come to the maker space after." I said, "Sure," and told her I would be there in a few minutes. True to my word I parked the van and went to the mockery space to hang out with her. There were two patrons in the room with her, so we couldn't really chat too long. I did take some picture of her, such as above. She mentioned that she's waiting for her photo shoot. Yeah, I want that. I HAVE to do that sometime in the future. I have to kiss her.

Sat July 13, Way back in 2013 TheGirl and I were in Big Sur / Monterey. Damn good times. I went ahead and posted some pictures on social media.

I found this post on social media where the only comment says, "Color me disgusted," in reference to the closing Adams on Saturdays. These dopes didn't make a big deal of telling the public about the closing of certain branches. But slowly these dopes will be told over and over again. Can't wait for the day they have to acknowledge that they made a mistake.

Ilsa invited me to a show in Chinatown where some DJ was mixing tunes. It's apparently some famous DJ, and he's quitting the station he works for. I kinda wanted to go, but at the same time I don't like doing these sorts of things. I don't really like doing anything on my day off. Or ever. I kinda wanted to go to this, but after seeing her pictures from the event I'm glad I didn't go. Too many dopes.

Mon July 15, Since TheLamp is now gone the library asked my old supervisor, the old reference librarian that retired a few years ago. He's back for a few months to cover some shifts. It's kinda crazy that he's back. I wondered if they were fixing it for him to return to his old job. But, then there's the fact that my boss sent a job application to Becks, who used to work here.

Meanwhile, back at home I was worried about my aunt, because the kitchen camera wasn't connected to the wifi. I checked the other cameras and found that she was in the living room (pictured above). She was reading her bible, but not really reading it. When I check the image above is what I saw. And she didn't move for over a minute. I thought that there was a glitch with the camera. But no, she actually kept hat bible in front of her face for a while. Sheesh. I wish she would get off this religious kick. But, she won't.

My aunt said something about cutting down something in the front yard. But she speaks in such generalities that I didn't know what bush or tree she wanted to cut down. Well, tonight I got my answer. There's a big bush in the front year, there used to be anyway. Now it's just a fucking mess that's been bisected and will probably kill the bush. Just GREAT.

Tue July 16, I'm going to change SirLuna's handle here to a name I use when I'm talking to my buddy... LunaTic. Today he deserves that and a worse name, if possible. Without a doubt LunaTic is both lazy and stupid. Apparently there was a problem with the van's door and the backup driver took it to the city lot and exchanged it for an Odyssey. Which is not a small van, just shorter than the delivery van. This dummy LunaTic only took some of the delivery because the van was "small," and "packed. There was a time about two years ago when I was given a pick up truck as a loaner. I barely had enough room for maybe two or three branches. I would drop some items and then return to Central to leave other items and get the rest of the delivery out. LunaTic has no work ethic, because he didn't THINK of splitting up the route like I did during those days that I didn't have the delivery van. What a fucking tool. I want this guy to rot.

A guy from JPL brought in a portable planetarium and projector today. A few days ago there was a general email that asked who wanted to see the show. I HATE participating at anything at the library, but THIS I did want to go to, because it seemed cool.

A bunch of us gathered to go into the show. Kvon took the fancy camera from me and started taking photos. The new librarian was standing by me, and this is how we ended up posing together.

After my time on the desk it was time to check out the portable planetarium show. It was pretty cool, but I love space stuff.

Wed July 17, This guy named Joe from administration sent me a text today regarding LunaTic's stupidity. Tony drives on Wednesdays. As you can see, he had to take the van back to the garage in order to take out the seats from the loaner van. Because of course idiot LunaTic didn't think to take the seats out, to make things easier on himself. What an idiot. I'm sure I'll get more information tomorrow at work.

I downloaded a currently popular app on my phone that ages a picture of yourself. I'm not surprised how I'm supposed to look when I'm older. That picture is basically a picture of my father. He didn't look at wrinkled, but he didn't live to be a very old man. Still, kinda cool.

Thu July 18, On Monday the van was having some mechanical issues with the back doors. While they had the van in the shop they decided to change the brakes on it as well. This meant that I had to deal with one of the loaner cars. This is always hit or miss, mostly miss. I have some news of how LunaTic dealt with the loaner, but first I wanted to mention that despite the loaner being smaller, I kinda liked having a smaller delivery van. It's certainly easier to maneuver, though the con is that there isn't the same amount of room.

I talked to the other driver, Tony, about stupid LunaTic today. I had already received some intel about LunaTic's stupidity. To recap: how he didn't think to take the seats out of the van to make room for the bins. Tony mentioned that he had to make two trips around the city because of the amount of bins he had. I dropped a dime on him telling him that on Tuesday LunaTic left nearly HALF of the delivery back at central because, "Well of course, if you don't take the seats out." Then he tells me that he planed on having a talk with Kvon about LunaTic. I told him that I would do the same. Later in the route one of the librarians from Brand tells me that LunaTic simply put the bins in the seats, "Like you would a baby in a car seat." Of course he only had room for a few bins, and of course dummy isn't going to think to make two trips.

Of course I had a packed van by the end of the day. I didn't use any excuses to skirt my work.

Today I learned that Casa is going to lose yet another page, this time a girl named Aubrey. She's going to Texas to work on her masters degree. I can't say that Casa, or any other branch was this great thing, but at least in the past it didn't feel like you were just being straight up screwed by the job. These days it feels like a constant Joan Collins Special.

Fri July 19, I've been driving a loaner van, mini-van really, yesterday and today. But really the loaner has been used all week. I already mentioned how stupid LunaTic didn't take the seats out of the van, so of course he used that as an excuse for not taking the full load of deliveries. Kvon mentioned yesterday that the regular van should be ready by today. I told him, "You'll let me know if I can pick it up." Because Thursday is his "late" day I figured he would get in contact with the garage and follow up. If he did the guy at the garage didn't give any indications.

I was going to shine it on and do the delivery and then have Tony take the van in on Monday to see if the regular van was ready. But I had a sneaky feeling that wasn't a good idea. Good thing too, because when I arrived at the city garage I asked if the delivery van was ready. They said, "Yes, it was ready since yesterday evening." Of course. Typical bullshit. The main guy at the garage says to me, "It's a good thing you came in, I've been calling and calling the library, but no one answers. I can't get in touch with Kvon or Jay." I told him that Kvon isn't there on Fridays, and Jay was "off." He just rolls his eyes and says that they needed the van back for cruise night tomorrow. So it was a good thing that I bought back the van. Yes, imagine if I hadn't felt the disturbance in "the Force" and waited to take the van in on Monday. Of course this goes to the nature of the library these days. No oversight, and no one cares. Kvon may or may not have followed up, but I'm pretty sure he didn't. Because he doesn't really care. And of course Friday is his day off. I'm certainly not one to say that he needed to follow up on this on his day off, because I know I don't want to do anything work related on my days off. However, being a responsible dumb dumb I feel that not checking some things on my "days off" will only set me up for a fail later. I wouldn't have been able to go to that planetarium thing on Tuesday if I hadn't checked my email on Monday. Technically a day off at the library for me (Glendale at least). But I point this out, because Kvon should have checked last night and perhaps today to see if the van was ready. He knows responsible dumb dumb here will follow up. Either way, I got my van back, no thanks to these dummies.

Sat July 20, My aunt told me yesterday that she wanted me to buy some pizza today. I didn't want to do the same old pizza as I always do, because it just doesn't taste that good. So I looked for another pizzas to get, and decided to try a new old place. New in that it's open recently, but old in that it's an old pizza... Numero Uno. It turned out to be better than the other pizza, but nothing THAT super good. But not bad.

Mon July 22, This morning was really busy on the desk. But what Monday isn't. It looks very likely that I'm going to stay working on the desk on Mondays. The two new people they hired seem to work opposite hours than me. I mean, I don't mind working the desk. I rather like that instead of the Foundation stuff. If they would just let me work the desk and have nothing to do with the Foundation I would be happy.

There's a couple of new ladies that come in and study. That super cute girl I knew as LatinaLawyer is probably never going to come back. Neither is that cute soon to be dentist. Today there is a really nice girl that comes in dressed like a long distance runner. Actually, now that I think about it, both the new cute girls wear that those runners shorts. One of the girls is actually in the photo above. She's sitting on the right.

TheGirl mentioned during my visit that I am the closest person to Cheyenne. It's crazy to think that the first time Cheyenne met me she wanted to tear my head off. Now you see us interact and we're two peas in a pod. I do love that pup. I never want anything bad to happen to her. Never.

My new TV showed up today. Woo hoo! When I got home I immediately took it out of the box. I was tired, so I wasn't sure if I should start putting it together and taking the old one out. But, I ended up doing just that. The new TV looks great in place. Now I just have to set all the accounts on it.

Tue July 23, I was glad to be on the slaughter desk today. It's fucking HOT and humid. Not a day that's favorable to doing the route. I was kinda glad dummy LunaTic was driving today. But then that dream was shattered by the shoulder tap of Mala. She walked out of her ivory tower in order to ask me if I could drive the route today, because LunaTic called out "sick." I had no choice. I was drafted. Of course I didn't have any of my route clothes with me. I left them at home because I wanted my aunt to wash them. Also, it's not my driving day. But, I think I might have to carry these clothes with me even on days that dummy doesn't drive. Because I know this isn't the last time he's going to pull this shit.

Sure enough, the route was rough today. Having to deal with the humidity really sapped my energy. But I used today to really dig this LunaTic deep in the sand.

One, the guy at Graphics told me that he observed LunaTic come into the room, look at the shelf where there was a print job done and ready to take, and then walk away without even flinching to try to take it with him.

Two, the librarian at Brand told me that while setting up some of the equipment for the music series they do up there he was told to unplug some of the wires, but he didn't. He just walked away.

Three, I hammered home how stupid/lazy it was that he didn't take out the seats from the loaner van last week.

There were so many little tid bits today that I honestly can't even remember. But, one thing I do remember is sorta talking to Kvon about LunaTic always being late, not picking up certain items, and generally being lady.

I didn't notice it until today, when I saw the driver that trained me taking the lunch totes back to the school district that I realized LunaTic wasn't doing that part of the job any more. I'll have to do some probing, but I'm sure it was his lack of work ethic that caused him to lose that part of the job. For sure he didn't drive the lunches this week.

My aunt was saying that I shouldn't be too eager for him to get fired, because it could mean me having to drive again on Tuesdays. And you know what, she's right. I do like having that easy going today on Tuesday without having to deal with the heat or the rain. Granted, I'm losing some of my freedom when I work the desk at Central. And I have to directly deal with the public. However, it's WAY better than having to drive three days a week. I'm currently driving two days a week, and that seems to be just right... for the moment. I know that I'm going to be asking for a raise soon. I best get it.

The picture above is that of a responsible dumb dumb... aka me. The reason I'm wearing this bowling shirt is because I was originally supposed to be on the desk today. But, as I stated earlier, fucking LunaTick didn't show up. Because, he was "sick." If he was sick that's one thing, but as someone pointed out, "He probably saw the weather forecast and decided to call in sick" I wouldn't put anything pass this motherfucker. Because he literally gets paid for NOT doing the route today. Anyway, I was saying about the shirt. I was on the desk, which meant I was wearing a "nice" Polo. I didn't expect to be driving, so I didn't even bring my route clothes. As a matter of fact, I decided to place them in the wash yesterday, because they were a bit stinky. When Mala walked behind and asked me to drive I told her I would need a different shirt, and I immediately asked the two guys in administration that I knew had shirts. But, since the city has been working on a new logo for the last five years, we don't have any new t-shirts. This is why I ended up wearing my coworker's bowling shirt. It's the only shirt he had to lend me. Someone later asked me why I just couldn't do the route with my "fancy" shirt. Ah, no. Fuck these dopes. They don't deserve that. They get me covering the route for idiot over there, but they don't get to soil my nice Polo t-shirt.

I think the one positive, outside of being able to claim more hours on my timesheet, is seeing TheBetter when I went to Pasadena. Of course the Universe would have me randomly show up to Pasadena and encounter TheBetter. She's some kind of vision. I once again tried to engage her in a conversation, but despite her making a comment to something I said she never looked at me. Boy, whatever I am I have found that I usually attract some sort of attention simply because I usually come off as a boisterous person. Perhaps I am boisterous, but inside I'm shy. But, then again, who isn't. I'd like to fantasize that TheBetter won't look at me because of my "animal magnetism." Yeah, right. She has a fella, and it's absolutely possible that she adores and loves him to the extreme that she looks at other men and has zero desire to be with them. In that way I do tip my hat to this imaginary man that is most likely not so imaginary in her life. However, this not so perfect man can't help but look at TheBetter and desire her.

Wed July 24

Thu July 25, The heat since last week has been pretty bad. Tuesday super sucked because of the heat and humidity. It wasn't as humid today, but it was still sucky. The morning was a little strange, since it began to rain when I was driving to Pasadena. Not a lot, but just enough for the van to get more dirty. Oh well. But then the sun came out and I wished that it had remained gloomy. Oh well.

I went to Pasadena to drop off their books, as I always do, and ran into TheBetter again today. I picked up all the books and needed to use the rest room before heading back to Glendale. As I was returning to the van I had to walk through the stacks. That's when I ran into TheBetter, as she went through the aisles. I think she might have been doing the pull list, but I'm not sure. Anyway, she goes from one stack and is right in front of me, about three or four paces as I was moving towards her. She sees me, her eyes get big in fright, I can only assume, and she bolts into the stacks. Like a fucking frightened gazelle. I mean, I don't have a chance with her. She's attached, younger than me, and obviously not interested.

I drank pretty hard last night before going to bed late. As a consequence of course I was feeling super sleepy. I went to Chevy Chase today to avoid going tomorrow, because I have some stupid training. The added bonus is that I was able to just go in and take a nice nap. Just twenty minutes, nothing major. I just needed to rest, because I was not feeling well AT ALL.

For some reason my knee started hurting around the time I returned from Pasadena. The pain became worse, and by the time I got to Chevy I was in a lot of pain. I took my nap, and I figured that not only would the nap help with my sleepiness, but with my knee. I was wrong. My knee was in more pain. I took some pills and took my lunch ice pack and made use of it as an impromptu ice pack. The combination of pills and ice helped the pain. By the time I reached Grandview my knee wasn't hurting any more. I think I must have tweaked it. Thankfully it didn't continue hurting. When I got home I put some of that rubbing alcohol that is supposedly infused with marijuana. It's stopped pains in the past, so whatever it has it's good.

Fri July 26, I had to rush through the route today due to the fact that I had to attend a semi-mandatory CPR training at 2pm. I mean, it wasn't like I super rushed through the route. I did have to skip going to Adams, and I did deliver to Chevy yesterday so I wouldn't have to do it today. Those two things saved me a LOT of time today. I'll gauge how it is at Adams after not delivering today, because it's been something I've wanted to know about not going there on Fridays. In short, I want to skip going to Adams on Fridays, because they usually only have three books to pick up. But then again, I guess I'll play that one by ear, since there are Fridays that they do have a lot of books going to them.

I finished up most of the route by 1:45pm, and was at the training session a few minutes early. Which gave me a chance to cool down from the heat outside. It was nice to be so cool after suffering outside all day long. The training isn't something I'll get into, only to say it was fine. But something I did realize is that I'm completely out of shape. I drank like a fiend this past week, and it shows. My whole body feels bad. I'm sure I'm affecting my health by drinking so much. I keep telling myself that I'm going to cut down. Yes, I do cut down, but it's not enough. I said I would hold myself to only drinking on Wednesdays when I go out to dinner with TheGirl and on Fridays. Well, I think I need to stop fooling myself and stick to that. Because this week I drank on Tuesday night and last night. The one night I skipped was Monday night. So much for only drinking two days a week. I'm not well. It feels so good to drink, but it's getting to be too much. I over do it. I don't have a nice nightcap, I have several. And then couple that with the great feeling it gives me when I'm jerking off and the two things combine to really fuck me up the next day, and beyond. I have to slow down.

The above photo is from the library's social media. It's pushing the mockery space, again. These dopes continue to throw resources at this damn mockery space... and they keep failing. About two weeks ago one of my coworkers named Daniel was working at Grandview. I told him that I noticed they were going to schedule him for the mockery space. He confirmed that they wanted him to work there. This week I asked him how it went, and how it was at the mockery space. He tells me, "Bro, I couldn't keep doing that... one day I sat there for seven hours and no one showed up the entire day." I smiled inside, because I KNOW that the mockery space is a waste. He does on to tell me that he went to Mama and said that he couldn't continue in the mockery space. "I just couldn't keep doing it... I don't like going to work and not having anything to do," he went on to tell me. He added that he's not going to be working at the Mockery space any more. Mwahahaha!

I was "trained" to work in the mockery space, and I know that if I ever end up working there a shift I'll be sure to bring my computer in order to have something to do. I only WISH that they would pay me to do my own projects there. Ha!

As we were winding down at work today TheLooker mentioned that she wanted to organize some sort of group hang with the library gang. I'm game, as long as I get to hang out with her socially. I want to somehow be intimate with TheLooker. I know, it's a tall task, especially trying to do the same with Emma. But, a man has to have goals. Ha! If nothing else it's energetic to have a nice lady like TheLooker show ANY kind of interest in hanging out with me. Which makes me wonder why. I guess I shouldn't even ask. I mean, why does anyone want to hang out with me? Especially a nice girl like TheLooker.

Still... gotta make this happen. I like being home, but I need to live a little. I'm not saying I'm going to go out every night. Just once in a blue moon. Which is more than I do these days.

Sat July 27, Emma wants to hang out with me. Why? I'll never know. I'd like to think that she likes me in some way. I have said that I want to be intimate with her here in this journal, but of course it hasn't happened yet. We originally wanted to go drinking, but since I told her that Saturday is a "school night" she said we should go to brunch today. To cut a long story short, we didn't go. She told me she had something else to do. The way I felt this morning I was happy to not to go. Also, she had invited Shay, who was certainly going to be a BIG cockblocker. Yeah, I have to make an effort to go and have drinks with Emma... alone.

The photo above is of a former Penthouse Pet, Chloe Jones. This picture came up on one of the social media accounts I follow. I remember this picture from my "youth," when I first started buying "girlie" magazines.

From Wikipedia:

Melinda Dee Jones was born and grew up in Silsbee, Texas. After graduating from Silsbee High School in 1994, she arrived in California with $400 in her pocket to start her acting career. She appeared in Baywatch, Comedy shows, a movie with Anna Nicole Smith, a Marilyn Monroe movie, and more. She later became a Playboy model and appeared in Vanity Fair, Hustler, and Swank. Jones was the Penthouse magazine Pet of the Month in April 1998, and she reluctantly crossed over into adult movies in 2001. Jones signed an exclusive contract with adult film company New Sensations, followed by another contract with Vivid Entertainment in February 2003. Both associations were brief (her contract with Vivid lasted five months). She retired from the adult industry in 2004. Jones performed in around 18 films during this time. Jones died in 2005, two weeks before her 30th birthday. Her early death has been blamed on liver failure caused by drug and alcohol abuse. She was buried at Woodlawn Garden of Memories Cemetery in Houston, Texas.

You think that someone as attractive as Chloe Jones would have it was in life. I know that's what we're taught in our common culture media. But reality is so much different. To me this woman represented an ideal fantasy, but little did I know who she was and what a tough life she had. She still represents a fantasy, because the picture above is some sort of abstract art, because I'm sure the pose isn't anywhere close to being natural. But, for a young man that didn't know better this woman represented an ideal. RIP.

Sun July 28, I arrived at work, as I usually do, early. I don't think anything of waiting a little bit before one of the full timers shows up and opens up the library. Around 12:15pm I started to wonder if we didn't have a full timer showing up today. The closest one lives next to the library, but it's also his day off. I don't expect him to be there. I texted my boss and sure enough we didn't have a full timer today. I opened the library and closed up. They really should just make me a full timer. They won't, though.

This is probably the tenth time I've posted a picture of Talia's butt on this journal, and then wrote about it. Her butt picture came up on my photo feed, which has been a source of memories being jarred from the past. Way back in 2008 I was in the middle of having a good time with Talia. I never thought that I would have an actual girlfriend. And that she would let me photograph her body, let alone sleep with me. Ha! I had this crazy notion to ask her if she wanted to be intimate again. I mean, why not?

Mon July 29, The San Marino library is closed this week until Saturday in order to have us all tag the books with radio frequency tags. The talk around the water cooler is that the patron would not be happy. But, I told people that we wouldn't have to worry since we would not have the patio open. Wrong. The patio was open, for no good reason. Not only that, but the phones kept on ringing, since no one put them on do not disturb.

This is something simple, and something the boss should have already thought about it. But it wouldn't be San Marino if something wasn't thought out. And sure enough the phones were ringing off the hook. That is, until the kid here took the library of turning them all to "Do not disturb." One of my coworkers also wondered if there was a way to change the outgoing message to say that the library is closed this week. I looked and saw that yes, there was a potential way of changing that. Nevertheless, THAT's not my job. It wasn't until the late afternoon that the boss was trying to change the outgoing message. Oh well. I told TheGirl about all these stupid challenges and she asked, "What would they do without you?" I told her that they would be fucked.

I will say that I enjoyed not having to deal with patrons today. I joked that if this was the job I would love it.

Tue July 30, Last week LunaTick called out sick and I was forced to do the route under last minute circumstances. This week I figured I best have at least my t-shirt ready in the car, just in case dummy decided it was OK to call out "sick" again. I arrived early this morning to do some photos, so when I saw that he hadn't arrived at 8am I was not yet panicking. But, thankfully dopey arrived. Yeah, sure, he arrived an hour late, but at least he was there.

As I just said, LunaTick was late, but for him he was early. Seeing as he always arrives at around 9am. Last week, on Thursday, after I finished the route, I ended up having to park the van in the white zone right outside the old entrance. This is because there's always some idiot that moves the cones and parks where the van is supposed to park. Instead of taking a long time looking for a spot, I often just find the nearest open spot. Sometimes that's right next to where the van is usually parked and sometimes not. Yesterday Tony had to park in the thirty minute parking close to where the bookdrop is located. If you know the van, and it's pretty big and hard to miss, you will see it from a country mile away. You will also see that it's NOT where it's usually parked by that same country mile.

What I saw today with LunaTick looking all over the North parking lot for a van that was CLEARLY not parked there is a new low in stupidity. I know the consensus among those I talk to about his antics is that he's lazy. To be sure, he's really lazy. However, I can't help but now dial back the cause of some of his stupid moves. He really is just dumb. He's mind is incapable of making even the smallest leaps of imagination. I saw him literally wandering around the parking lot looking for the van. It's not THAT big of a parking lot. Also, it's not like the van can hide behind some other vehicle very easily. I can easily turn the corner into that lot and see the van from the other side. It's not rocket science. Also, to practically walk right by the van and not even notice that it's parked so close to the door is myopic. I honestly don't understand how this guy even found the building for his interview. He is completely clueless.

Look, when he first started I gave him MANY benefits of the doubt. In the short time he's been driving he has totally fucked everything up. I don't think he's done the route pure ONCE. He always "forgets" something. Instead of trying to improve he gets worse. This is no thanks in part to bad management that allows him to arrive over an hour late for work. And let's him do the job in such a half-assed fashion that the Wednesday driver ends up having to pick up the slack for the fool. And management simply says that he's "trying." No, he's not trying. He's not. He is simply going through the motions and stealing his not so hard earned money from the city. Fucking bullshit. I hate that they make excuses for this shit. It's not warranted since he has not built up a good reputation to fall back on. He is trash as an employee. He may be a good person outside of work, but he's one of the worst coworkers I've had in my life.

Wed July 31, I said it in a previous entry, not having to deal with the public was something of a dream. I asked a couple of other coworkers and they agree. It was great not to have to deal with the patrons this week. Sadly next week we're going to be open again. Fuck me.

The president of the library foundation bought us all lunch today. They brought pizzas, pasta and salad. I had a little bit of everything. It was a good time. I don't think I've ever seen that many of us in the lounge (pictured above). It's a unique time since the closure of the library wasn't due to a holiday.

On a side note, LaFlor looked really nice today.

Today would have been the ninth anniversary for TheGirl and myself. It's been a good nine years, even if we haven't been in a relationship that entire time. For sure it's because of our strong friendship.